For those of you who know me, know that I love holidays. Any holiday I try to bring joy to my children by making things fun. This is a different sort of year, with a different sort of feelings, perspectives changed, priorities changed, and a "little black raincloud". I woke up this morning thinking I wanted to stay in bed, to wallow just a little in self pity, and to cuddle with my boy. As I came to the realization of my gloominess, I decided I need to commit to as much "normalcy" (if that is even possible) as I can for my babies. I got out of bed and determined pink heart french toast it would be! I even added a side of "red potatoes"! It is amazing how just a pinch of happiness in a rainy little world can create rainbows. The kiddies were satisfied. Belle, my 5 year old daughter mentioned that this year is Gavin's (9 months old in 2 days) first Valentine's day. This cheered my sulky heart for staying commited to my role as mommy, the mommy who makes the holidays fun. I had bought fabric about a month ago to make blankets for the kids for Valentines Day. When this "boulder" came crashing down on our family it became the farthest thing from my mind. Every week Belle would say, "mom don't forget about our blankets." What to do? I knew I would not have the time or the energy, but don't you worry Katie to the rescue. For those of you who don't know Katie, Katie is the ultimate "homemaker" and the ultimate friend. She has inspired me in so many ways. She worked on those blanket for me over the last couple of days and they turned out amazing! Okay, SO my main goal of this post was to emphasize the importance of family. Of cherishing those little souls who you have been so lucky to have in your lives. Of cherishing your husband, no matter his faults. Of cherishing the family who is so willing to sacrifice their schedules to come to your aid, and pray for you with all of their being. Cherish every moment you have surrounded by loved ones. This is the best Valentines Day I have ever experienced. I have learned that chocolates, flowers, diamonds, presents in general are so insignificant compared to the gift of family. I cherish the life of my Spence, and I cherish the opportunity that I have had thus far to be his mom.