Monday, May 31, 2010
Saturday, May 29, 2010
Friday, May 28, 2010
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
I got a text today while I was at the dentist with Belle, from one of my "bestest" friends in the whole entire world that said "What if I want to be a gold AND silver friend?" We came to the consensus that she and Sara are my diamond encrusted friends, blingalicious if you may. I am actually trying to get through this post without bawling my eyes out. These woman are the strongest I know. We have been through many things together in the past 16 years. Together we have seen heartache, adolescence, first loves, breakups, self discovery, rebirths, out of state moves, dances, college, marriage, children, death, sickness, happiness, toilet papering, egging ex-boyfriends cars, thousand of inside jokes, road trips, etc, etc. These are women who know me better than I know my own self. These are woman who "just know" when to call or text or email. We have carried each other burdens, experienced pure joy in each others happiness. We have mourned with one another, rejoiced together, put toothpaste on our pimples together, and experienced intense spirituality with one another. These woman are above all other woman. No matter how far we are in distance our hearts and souls are forever connected and I feel so incredibly lucky to have them in my life. For more than half of my life now! They have earned every diamond encrusted in our friendship. I love them beyond explanation. I love you my Sara and Kerilyniepooh!
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Monday, May 24, 2010
These pictures are of our last stay. This first one is Spence waiting to get his line taken out.
After surgery, getting his line replaced.
Last week we had Starla. She is awesome. We had some kind of crazy things happen this visit and she made us feel comfortable and safe, plus she is a sister Southern California girl, so how can we not love her! She left us a cute little note when we were in surgery and her shift ended. We are lucky to be on such a great unit with so many great nurses, doctors, techs, etc, etc.
Saturday, May 22, 2010
Let me not to the marriage of true minds
Admit impediments. Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove:
O no! it is an ever-fixed mark
That looks on tempests and is never shaken;
It is the star to every wandering bark,
Whose Worth's unknown, although his height be taken.
Love's not Time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks
Within his bending sickle's compass come;
Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,
But bears it out even to the edge of doom:
If this be error and upon me proved, I never writ, nor no man ever loved.
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Nate took the weekend shift at the hospital, and Spence was really looking forward to his time with his dad. Belle has been struggling with me being gone so I decided to make a fun weekend of everything. It was a beautiful, sunny day and the sky was gorgeous. Belle and I got our nails done, celebrated Gavs birthday by going to In-N-Out, Sweet Tooth Fairy, a church activity, and then went to see Babies at the theatre. We had a really enjoyable weekend together. I miss my kids.
Monday, May 17, 2010
Friday, May 14, 2010
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
In my agony last night, I forgot to reflect on my blessings. FRIENDS. I am so blessed with so many friends who are still always here for me! My friends are inspired. Yesterday, when I began recognizing my heavy load, the Lord began lifting my burdens through my friends. Two cute hospital volunteers walked in with two ballons, Starburst, and a magazine. The note said "Love Allyson". My cute friend in California called the hospital and had these fun things sent to our room "just because". Oh the power of friendship and the true inspiration they carry for us. Then today, after posting on Facebook that I was craving chips and salsa, another friend from church dropped by with a couple of bags of chips and a jar of salsa. Seriously? How did I get so lucky to have such wonderful friends. Another friend of mine stopped by for dinner tonight, Cafe Rio and Dr. Pepper. One of my BFF's texted me today, she lives in Texas and just had a baby, and wanted to let me know how much she loves me. These are wonderful things for a broken spirit. My other blessing is my husband. My sweet, loyal wonderful husband. He came today with a bunch of Mother's Day roses (which, unfortunately, are not allowed on ICS) for me. He does a wonderful job being a single parent as Spence and I spend many days away, at the hospital (I may need to hire a hairdresser for Belle though)! I love the picture below of Nate, Spence and the Jazz Bear Nate brought him. I also included a picture of our view. Although the roof is a lot of the view, the greenery, mountains and rainy skies provide me with much solace and gratitude, you may need to click on the picture to really enjoy its beauty. We had a few challenges today, but thanks to friends, a great husband and Cafe Rio we made it through!
Monday, May 10, 2010
Gavs tried his first corn on the cob. He pretty much chucked it across the room, but that is what he does with everything nowadays.
Just a good natured kid!
Face painting, golf, bean bag toss! Day of fun!
Gavs and Brockster BFF's!
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Friday, May 7, 2010
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
We are lucky to be here to get such great care. My blessing today is chemo. I know that is so oxymoronical but every chemo done is one closer to the end of treatment. Every chemo done is just more weapon for the fight. I am sad because we are stuck on the third floor again, the ICS overflow, away from our comfort zone. The nurses are the same which makes things a little better. There is no parent laundry/kitchen room, no flat screen, and no XBox 360. Those things may seem a shallow reason to want to be on the true ICS unit but it means so much to a little boy who feels "stuck" here. His weight is up, thanks to our continuous feeds, and the nutritionist was impressed with our "Gatorade feeds" to keep him hydrated. He has had his Vincristine and is now getting the Cytoxan, two of which we have previously had. After the Cytoxan will be the Doxorubicin which is new for us. Chemo makes me nervous. As much as I am thankful for its "powers" I get really anxious before and after it is administered for the first time in a session. He is asleep now, due to his anti-emetics and will most likely be for the remainder of our stay here. I already miss his conversation. We had an enjoyable day talking and texting! I was watching a movie on my laptop while he was playing with his iPod Touch and I got a text that said, "I love you mommy". Oh how my heart melts for this kid. I am so lucky to be his mom. I am so lucky to have three beautiful children.
Monday, May 3, 2010
Saunie watched Gavs while we were at the school, so we headed back her way. They were preparing some yummy delicious cajun food (her husband is from Louisiana) and so we stayed for dinner. Crawfish Etouffee, and the best fried shrimp ever! Spencer even attempted to try a shrimp. It didn't end up happening, but he put it on his tongue. His poor taste buds still aren't working correctly. The kids goofed around, I even had to tell Spence to settle down (yay!) and they watched a movie. Us girls watched a chick flick while the boys went out to watch the Jazzgame. It was a thoroughly enjoyable day.
The next morning I got my hair done at Total Betty by Marti (she is fabulous, best ever!) and ran some errands. I then started preparing the tamales for our family Cinco de Mayo party at Nate's parents house the next day. Spencer really wanted to celebrate Cinco de Mayo but he will be in patient that day so we decided to do it on Sunday. Tamales take a couple of days to prepare so I started on Saturday. I made rice and coconut flan as well. We had a great "fiesta" and enjoyed being with our family. Spence tried a bite of a taco, flan and chips and guacamole! The kids love being with their cousins. The weekend was so great. We haven't been able to enjoy it like this yet. I feel like we are starting to settle into our new norm. I know that their will be bumps in the road but this new norm is much better than the anxieties of a new diagnosis! Tomorrow we go in for a three day in patient. He will get Vincristine, Cytoxan, and Doxirubicin. We have done V and C but not D so keep him in your prayers! If you scroll down to the end I have included "Holly's Tamales" recipe!