Tuesday, April 13, 2010

A Little Moment

I know I said I was not going to blog until Wednesday but I needed a little "moment". I wanted to share a story that I think is cute and it is one of the reasons why I feel so lucky to be a mom to my kids. Isabelle and Spence were talking in the car as we were driving home and I hear Spencer say to her "Isabelle, do you want to hear a cool version of Beethoven's Fifth?" Belle: "Yeah! That is so cool, I love this song." I do not know many children, five years and seven years of age who sit and talk about Beethoven and his symphonies and know which is which, but mine do and I love them for that. I love listening to them talk to eachother in a friendly, loving manner. They are great kids.
I have not been too emotional over the last couple of weeks but today I was looking for some specific pictures. As I was browsing I went through the last four years of Spencer's life and I started to cry. I cannot even explain to you, especially to you who have not met this incredible boy, how truly incredible he is. There were so many pictures that just made my heart sad to think about how my life would be, or could be without him physically there with me, actively involved in my life. How do I even fathom those thoughts. I found this one picture specifically, that made me smile and cry and the same time. There is nothing significant about this picture, nothing extraordinary about the day it was taken but you can see his life, and his love and his handsomeness and his spunkiness all wrapped up together and I just don't know what happened for us to be where we are now, and it just sucks, and I just want to keep him with me forever. Yesterday I told him that he can live with me forever and he said "I was planning on it, but then I forgot I need to live with my wife." I just chuckled and told him she can live with us too. I don't know when or if we will ever get through this, and I just want to breathe again.

8 comments:

  1. He is such a handsome little guy! I am very impressed that your kids have conversations about classical music!! My kids ask me why anyone would choose to listen to it. Apparently we don't expose them to enough culture!

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  2. I love you and your sweet family! You all are my heroes:)

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  3. Thank you for sharing the the experiences your family is going through. Dean and I think about your family often.
    Erika Ellis

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  4. Very cute story :) I forgot I was going to tell you this the other day....We have your Christmas card up on a little magnet board, (my "cancer" board with pictures of family & friends that are going through cancer) Anyway, Polly looked at the picture & said, "Mom, why is Spencer playing in the hay?" What a weirdo to notice the background of the pictures & think your kids were just out there to play.... & it must have just been funny the way she said it that made me laugh :)

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  5. Can you imagine the people who have to go through this without the knowledge of the plan of salvation? What a huge comfort it is to know he is forever yours!! Even after he is with his wife!! Precious boy!

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  6. I'm sure Betsy and Spencer will make a cute couple, but they probably will want to live by themselves, not with YOU!!! Sweet post!

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  7. i love his comment about living with you forever! what a cute boy he is!

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