Wednesday, March 31, 2010
I am panicking just a bit. We are here in the Oncology clinic for our new round of chemo. We will have Vincristine like normal, but then we begin Cytoxan. I talked to a friend who has taken Cytoxan and didn't have any good things to say about it, so I asked the Dr. what the common side effects are. Vomiting, neutropenia, bladder infection (not like a UTI ). I am so worried about it. He told me to call right away if there is blood in his urine. Neutropenia means no visitors at home. We are going to start on a feeding tube tonight but I am worried about his tummy now with this round of chemo. Panic, panic, panic! There is a little boy walking around with his dad while he gets chemo, he is probably two years old at the very most. His dad has a Team Kaden shirt on, fighting against Leukemia. It is just so not fair that these babies have to suffer so much. I just want to scream and kick, and punch, and stomp and spit and cry. I hate all of this. I hate it for Spence, I hate it for our family, I hate it for all the kiddies going through this and their families, I hate it for everyone that has to deal with this. It is just not fair. I have been pretty positive this week but as I sit here and am given all of the negatives it is hard to smile.
Posted by Gooches at 12:16 PM