Sunday, March 21, 2010


I am really tired. I cannot remember the last time I slept. I average about two hours of sleep a night and those are not even necessarily in a row. I thought tonight, or technically last night, would be better. Being so exhausted from the days events and actually laying my head down two hours earlier than normal, this nights sleep was promising. Who was I kidding? Beeping, lab draws, meds, and diarrhea all played a part in our night, as they do every night. Why should tonight be any different? The nurse, who is super sweet, must have forgotten that I asked for Immodium to be given around the clock. He has been off of it for a few days now per pending C.Diff results. Negative results were given this afternoon, so now his poor diarrhea could be controlled again, but NOT if Immodium is forgotten. It is funny how all nurses are different. Here on this unit they are all so nice and sweet but some are "on top of it" more than others. I know what it is like to work in the hospital. I know what it is like to work night shifts. Tonight, I am a little more frustrated. Spence has already had a "crappy" day, {no pun intended} and the last thing he needs is unnecessary diarrhea and interrupted sleep. I just want this to all go away, and I just want him to come home. I want him to be with our family. I want to be with our family. I want to sleep for many, many hours in a normal bed. I want to go home.


  1. Hey Holly. I'm still reading everyday, still praying for you guys, still shedding tears for the amount of patience it must take to get through all of this craziness. Crappy days are sure to come on like no other over the rest of spence's treatment and it just sounds miserable (in spite of all the cool things your friends are doing!). I hope that you're able to get some of that much needed sleep & rest to remain strong through those days.

    Keep writing, keep posting. I'll keep reading and praying.

  2. I'm praying that the chair magically turns into a very comfy, most soft bed ever!

  3. I know you don't know me from Adam. I wish there was something I could do to ease your pain. I wish I lived closer. I would love to help out with the house work. I'm so sorry for all that you are going through. You are amazing.
    I love the music on your blog. I come to your blog to hear the music. It helps to calm my troubled heart.
    Our prayers are with your family.

  4. So sorry...If each of us could carry a little of the pain it would be good..Guess it doesn't work that way....Just know that thru these Post we r all still Praying for Spencer and each one of you and your family..Praying Down South.

  5. You never know how good just plan normal life is until you don't have it. Darn it.
    Saturday was awesome.

  6. I also love the music....It calm's my Day