Monday, May 31, 2010

Revitalize

I am working on consistency. The last two hospital stays kicked my butt and we only have a few more chemo admits until we have a break for the summer. Our "break" consists of only clinic chemoes, which can be tiring, but no overnight stays, and that makes us happy! It will be a time of rejuvenation, revitalization, and re-energizing, of body, mind and spirit. We had a wonderful birthday weekend, which of course I am working on blogging. I REALLY need to SCRUB my poor house before I can do that. I wish summer was here year round. Lots of people L.O.V.E. the four seasons, um, I am a Southern California girl, born and raised, and I am perfectly with Spring and Summer year round. The sun, the warmth, it energizes me, it motivates me. I think I would be thin if it was sunny and warm all of the time. I want to run, I want to eat healthy, I want to play with my kids outside. I want to bike, swim, and ZUMBA! This new energy gives me hope for good things to come in our crazy life. I was working on losing weight after having a baby when Spencer was diagnosed and unfortunately I have already gained weight back. I was talking to a nurse last stay and she said lots of parents leave in the morning to go running. Why didn't I think of that? Probably because I don't like to leave Spencers side but she said "parents need to stay healthy to take care of these kids and if leaving them for an hour to go running is what they need to do then we understand." My valid excuse has been that I have no time. Things are going to change. I need to make some time to take care of myself so that I can continue to take care of my Spencer and my family without "hurting" myself physically and mentally. I have been thinking about starting Jillian's online program. Has anyone tried this? Thank you for letting me make a side note, an energized thought, to express the goals I have for myself. Writing them to you makes me accountable. I want to feel physically happy for Disney World next summer, and I want to live a healthy for my children. I am going to take the next few days to work on cleaning my home before our next hospital visit. I will do my best to continue to blog in between. I have a whole wonderful weekend of birthday bliss to blog!

5 comments:

  1. Somehow we learn to live with cancer. In the beginning I wondered if we'd ever be looking back, it seemed like one bad thing after another. Well that was 9 months ago and guess what? We're looking back! Glad it's behind us, don't know what's ahead. Just trying to make the most of it and realize life's never going to be perfect. There's no such thing. I'm trying to loose the weight I gained with the stress of it all. It's hard. At least you don't have menopause to deal with too! That makes it much harder! Dang! You're always in my thoughts and prayers.

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  2. Weight Watchers is super awesome way to go, if you want to eat what you want and lose weight! I don't think any of those diets where you have to deprive yourself work. Thanks for the update! Still praying!

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  3. Good for you and your exercise plans! I know getting those endorphins pumping always makes everything better for me, and if it brings weight loss then it's an extra bonus! Good luck!

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  4. I HEART ZUMBA! I am going this morning at 10 am. I feel your pain with the weight issue. I worked really hard to lose my baby weight, and then the stress of the job/move/home buying process/making new friends phase of life saw me put back on in 6 months the 30 pounds I had spent 8 months losing. 7 months later, I'm still just fluctuating with in the same 5 pound range. What worked for me before was dailyplate.com - the basic membership is free, and it allows you to log in everything you eat, and calculates the calories/fat/carbs, etc. YOu can also log in exercise, and it calculates the calories you've burned. You put in your weight loss goals, and it tells you how many calories you can eat in a day. Some days I wasn't super strict on what I ate or how much I ate, but I found that forcing myself to record EVERYTHING, made me want to eat better, exercise more, etc. It was tedious and time consuming, but it became a habit and helped me be aware, which led to better choices and more changes. I'm going to start it again today.

    We should set a health goal together. We'll each try and lose a certain amount of weight in the month of June, and when I come to visit in the beginning of July, we'll treat ourselves to a pedicure or movie or shoe shopping or salad bar lunch or something fun if we've both hit our goal. Then throughout the month, we can message and text each other for support. You game?

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  5. If you're interested in running while you're at the hospital, I have a route that I used to do during lunch that's probably about 1-1.5 miles. Let me know and I can show you. Also, I really agree with Amber. If you're looking for a good diet, do Weight Watchers. You can still have what you want but it teaches you the REAL way to lose weight--portion control and moderation.

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