Raw

It is time again to speak of my husband. He is not a very emotional person and this whole experience has been really hard for him. There have been so many rough moments in the past two months but many blessings have also been given. One of these many blessings is the renewed "crush" I have discovered that I have on my sweet husband. Marriage is a hard road that has to be constantly worked on and as life "lives" those fun feelings sometimes become hidden. Watching my husband soften and sweeten as he breaks down all of the manly walls he has built makes my heart beat faster. Last night as he stayed with our sweet boy, he called me sobbing. He helped Spencer bathe and his frail little body got the best of his readily available emotions and he poured out his sorrows to me. "He looks like a sick, old man" he said. "I hate this" he continued, and cried. It is a very spiritual thing to experience raw emotion with someone you love. It can join your souls and your hearts and create a bond where no words are even needed or even understood, for they cannot properly express the moment. I love you my wonderful husband. I love your new found tenderness and the commitment you have always had for our family. I love your deep rooted faith and your raw sentiments. I am lucky to be able to walk this journey with you. Thank you for holding my hand and carrying me along.