Awake

I am really tired. I cannot remember the last time I slept. I average about two hours of sleep a night and those are not even necessarily in a row. I thought tonight, or technically last night, would be better. Being so exhausted from the days events and actually laying my head down two hours earlier than normal, this nights sleep was promising. Who was I kidding? Beeping, lab draws, meds, and diarrhea all played a part in our night, as they do every night. Why should tonight be any different? The nurse, who is super sweet, must have forgotten that I asked for Immodium to be given around the clock. He has been off of it for a few days now per pending C.Diff results. Negative results were given this afternoon, so now his poor diarrhea could be controlled again, but NOT if Immodium is forgotten. It is funny how all nurses are different. Here on this unit they are all so nice and sweet but some are "on top of it" more than others. I know what it is like to work in the hospital. I know what it is like to work night shifts. Tonight, I am a little more frustrated. Spence has already had a "crappy" day, {no pun intended} and the last thing he needs is unnecessary diarrhea and interrupted sleep. I just want this to all go away, and I just want him to come home. I want him to be with our family. I want to be with our family. I want to sleep for many, many hours in a normal bed. I want to go home.