Monday, July 5, 2010

Bring it On

Throughout my life, and more now than ever, I hear a lot about trials. Trials make us stronger. Trials are here to make us grow. I believe whole heartedly that trials do these things but I do not believe that these are their only purpose. All of us have trials. Some people do indeed need to grow, and gain strength, but trials do other things as well. Trials, tribulations, afflictions, sorrows, have done many things to make me who I am. I have had some pretty big "trials" throughout my life beginning as a young child. I have definitely brought on some of my own afflictions but most have been God's "strengthening" exercises. Trials, now for me are not strength builders. They reaffirm, they testify and they prove my strength. I think that the Lord sometimes wants to double check this strength or maybe Satan likes a challenge. There is no challenge here because there is NO OTHER way for me. I am deeply rooted in God. These words are not meant for me to show you "MY" strength. I want to testify to you that the Lord builds us up, molds us, strengthens us if we allow ourselves to be sustained through Him, to root ourselves in faith and to build our foundations upon Him. I have times of vulnerability, sadness, and even anger, BUT NEVER doubt. Life is ever changing, unstable and full of surprises, but the Lord is not. He is constant, and solid, and warm. He has never left me and always gives me the peace I seek. I am me because of my trials. I don't want to open myself for more "strengthening exercises" by saying this, but I feel privileged that God has given me these experiences to prove to Him that I am ever-faithful, unwaivering, anchored in Him. I have been feelin that I didn't blog enough on my faith and who I really am. This is me. Through my sorrows, my tears, and my vulnerability I will remain this way. I may be making myself an easy target for Satan and for more trials but to this I say "bring it on, I am a daughter of God!"

9 comments:

  1. Hi, you don't know me but my name is kira cook and I live up in Daybreak. I clicked on your blog when I was looking at Danny Gibson's blog. I'm good friends with his sister Lindsey. We grew up together in Irvine. Anyways I read your blog often and think you and your family are such a great source of inspiration and faith. While studying today I read this quote by Elder Holland that I thought you might enjoy....

    ¨Don`t you quit, you keep trying. There is help and happiness ahead. Some blessings come soon, some come late, and some don`t even come until heaven. But for those who embrace the gospel of Jesus Christ, they come. It will be alright in the end. Trust God and believe that good things will come.¨

    Thanks for your stength

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  2. You don't know me. and I only know you through this blog. You are truly a daughter of God. If we look at our lives through those eternal windows, we see wonderful pictures. You have earned your spot in the celestial kingdom, right there next to your son and your wonderful family. Hold on. The Lord is alway there. God bless all of you.

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  3. A great big AMEN! I feel the same way. Sometimes I think my waivering youth was to prepare me for what is to happen now so that I can be "strong" through it all.

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  4. hey i'm kira cook, I'm friends with Danny Gibson from Irvine CA. I was reading their blog and clicked on the "super spence" link. Just wanted you to know how inspirational and full of faith you are. There was a quote I read the other day from Elder Holland,

    "Don`t you quit, you keep trying. There is help and happiness ahead. Some blessings come soon, some come late, and some don`t even come until heaven. But for those who embrace the gospel of Jesus Christ, they come. It will be alright in the end. Trust God and believe that good things will come.¨

    stay strong!

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  5. Holly, you are such a good example to me and have helped me grow and see the important things in life. I am so impressed by you and hope that I can be half the woman you are!!!!!! You are amazing!

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  6. Reason # whatever.
    You faith is an inspiration to ALL of us. Keep going Holls, you are doing such a great job!xoxo

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  7. Holly you are killing me with these posts! Where are the tissues??? Thank you for posting about Ray. I know we were on opposite sides of the door that day but our feelings and experiences were the same. Ray was just reading your blog as well and said Spencer is cool. He had questions about various things and I really think it helped him to see that he is not alone. Don't we all need to know that?
    I agree that Spencer is cool. He is a beautiful boy and I am so glad we met. talk to you later!

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  8. It seems like u have the perfect words for everything! Thanks for sharing! I love u!

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  9. Holly! Amen and Amen! I thank my stars our paths crossed even for that short moment, for you have brought so much faith and inspiration to my life! You are braver then me! I don't dare say "bring it on"! I'm too afraid of what will be "brought." However, I take strength in knowing that we can and will find strength, especially with the Lord on our side!

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