I am having an emotional moment. I am not quite sure why. It may be because I have been "spring cleaning" and I was going through a lot of beginning of diagnosis papers, and it may be a little because of the easy listening music playing but I have some mixed emotions. I think about how unknown the future was for us 10 months ago TODAY. How scary things were back then. We still have moments of unsurety but with the end close and his health improving it is easier to be optimistic now. I was thinking about all of the hospital moments we have had and all of the friends we have made. We have 3 inpatient days left if he doesn't get sick before the end and it makes me emotional to leave all of the wonderful people there. We are so happy to be done and not have to stay there regularly but these people have changed our lives, they have all saved my son's life in some way or another and it makes me emotional to leave them. Spence got emotional the other day and said he was going to really miss Mike, the child life specialist in oncology. What a journey we have been on. We have gained so many things. I remember a cancer mom telling me when I first began this that I will come out of this a different person.
We are all different. This has changed us all so much. We are branded and even a little scarred but we are better. Our perspectives and priorities have changes and we are happier than we have ever been. Our family bond is strong. This will be the best Christmas of our lives because we have a love for eachother and an appreciation that is better than before.