I am Holly.

Sorry, sorry! I know I have taken a little break from blogging today, I needed a little time and Gavin had his 9 month check up today and we have had lots of visitors. I have tons to blog from yesterday and today and even a blog I need to finish from Monday! I will get to that tonight. I just wanted to share a little experience I had with myself today. I dropped Belle and Gavin off at my dad's house and I was alone in the car with the radio on (never a good thing for me!). A slow depressingish Michael Buble song came on and I got a little low. Next was that Fireflies song came on by Owl City and I sunk a little bit lower. I was trying not wallow but I haven't slept well in four days and my spirits were kind of low, but then a little treat came next. It was the Backstreet Boys! I turned up the volume, thought of Sara and Keri, and Sara's little dance to this particular song and rocked out. In those three short minutes I had this realization that I was still Holly. I am fun! I go to midnight showings of movies. I camp out on Black Friday. I throw showers and parties, and I love to laugh. I am still a real person. I am still me. I have to take on this big, emotional roll and even in the short few weeks I almost forgot about me. I am still in here somewhere, always rocking out to Backstreet (and even a little J.T.)!