Monday, May 2, 2011


Tonight I am feeling lonely. I feel set apart from the World. I feel heart ache. I feel wounds. New and open. I feel healing. I feel conflicts. Have you ever lost a friend? Gone separate ways? This is a first for me and it cuts like a knife. I have so many friends it seems that losing one would not be a huge loss, but for me, a part of me feels like it is missing. I think we all have times in our lives that we think we are doing the right thing but the right thing backfires on us. My life is filled with good intentions. I never mean to offend or hurt or push anyone aside. I have anxieties about not making everyone feel apart of the group. My friends are family. Tonight I feel lonely. Sad. Part of me missing. I love you friend. I miss you. I wish you understood that. I wish there was something I could do. I wish I could take away all your pain, your heart ache, your medical bills. I wish I could shake you and tell you that I love you. I wish you knew you are first front in my mind and my heart and that I read your blog and your Facebook and that you know I know how you are doing. Life can be sad. Tonight I am sad.


  1. :( I understand completely. I hope it works out for you both. <3

  2. I understand too! It's so hard when you lose people close to you... not only that, but when you are trying so hard and doing almost everything you possibly can to bring that person back into your life. I've been in the exact same place=( And I just came to the realization that I've done all I can do, and I just pray for that person that God will soften their heart and let them know I love them! You sure seem like you would be such a wonderful friend! Thank you for sharing your feelings with all of us... Will be praying for you to have happier days=)