C.L.E.A.R.!!!!

There were so many emotions that I wanted to blog today. I did not sleep more than two hours because of sick kids and I am a mess. I had been thinking about things I wanted to blog and feelings of feeling like I am spinning out of control, like I am losing grip on the few strands of rope that I am barely hanging on to anyway. So many thoughts running through my mind, my spirits however are changing because I just found out that Spencer's bone marrow results came back CLEAR. He said all looked well. There were no traces of any of the Rhabdo cells floating around, no metastasized cells! I have been praying for relief, for burdens to be lifted off of my shoulders. I wasn't quite sure if I could walk any farther with all I have been asked to carry and now I can breath, if at least for a moment. I will take this moment. I am so exhausted and so emotional and I just really needed some great news today. I needed to know that this hell and this poison is working. I needed to know that my baby is going through this for it to work. Little glimpses of "chemo in progress" give me rays of sunshine in this cloudy era of life. I also wanted to give a "shout out" to my friends. I had several friends feel like they needed to call me this morning. I needed these calls. All of your "feelings" have been inspired and I am thankful to you all for being able to receive that inspiration. Our family has been blessed with the very best friends in the world. Not everyone gets diet Dr. Pepper delivered to their door! I love you friends.