I am having an emotional moment. I am not quite sure why. It may be because I have been "spring cleaning" and I was going through a lot of beginning of diagnosis papers, and it may be a little because of the easy listening music playing but I have some mixed emotions. I think about how unknown the future was for us 10 months ago TODAY. How scary things were back then. We still have moments of unsurety but with the end close and his health improving it is easier to be optimistic now. I was thinking about all of the hospital moments we have had and all of the friends we have made. We have 3 inpatient days left if he doesn't get sick before the end and it makes me emotional to leave all of the wonderful people there. We are so happy to be done and not have to stay there regularly but these people have changed our lives, they have all saved my son's life in some way or another and it makes me emotional to leave them. Spence got emotional the other day and said he was going to really miss Mike, the child life specialist in oncology. What a journey we have been on. We have gained so many things. I remember a cancer mom telling me when I first began this that I will come out of this a different person.
We are all different. This has changed us all so much. We are branded and even a little scarred but we are better. Our perspectives and priorities have changes and we are happier than we have ever been. Our family bond is strong. This will be the best Christmas of our lives because we have a love for eachother and an appreciation that is better than before.
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When our trials make us stronger we have passed the test. You are amazing. Your life has changed many of ours forever also. Thank you for sharing your journey.
ReplyDeleteHolly-You're a huge inspiration to my family! When we feel a little bit bad for ourselves...we think of Spencer and all the daily challenges your family must face. Thanks for daily boosting our spirits with news:) *Merry Christmas*
ReplyDeleteI understand the mixed emotions of being done (Happy!) and missing all the hospital staff (Sad). We recently paid a visit to our hospital ER to see a friend and one of our favorite nurses was there. It was so great for us to see her again and she got emotional at seeing a much healthier Kevin who looks completely different than when she took care of him. We'll never ever forget!
ReplyDeleteIt's so great that your family is coming out of this stronger people; not everyone can say that when they go through a trial such as this. Heavenly Father has certainly blessed all of you. I've been amazed as I've watched each of you deal with this. The Lord definitely works in mysterious ways, that's for sure. Although you never wish your child to be ill, I'm sure as you look back on your journey, you will have some fond memories. Your life will never be the same--it will be better. You've done hard things. You're amazing! I love you.
ReplyDeleteJust Beautiful!
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